j...u...m...p...e...r...

This one's for my god of war with a devil's pitchfork:





because I could tell he's been down for awhile and for so long. because he stays too much into the deepest recesses of his darkest shadow. and i know it gets tiring, too. i wish he would loosen up a bit. i wish he would lighten up a bit. like what he said to me before. and i wish i could be there for him, but he no longer lets me in. i wish he could be a little warmer. because i don't understand this sullen shift. and though i know better not to have any form of expectation, somehow, the confirmation of a nothing still hurts me. echoing like nails scratching on a long piece of chalk board. because i want him. and i want him badly. so badly this sting remains for years. but all i could do is watch him from the shade. there goes my muse who drowns himself in his own torture cell...and i can't do a thing.


"i wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
you could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
and if you do not want to see me again
i would understand
i would understand

the angry boy, a bit too insane
icing over a secret pain
you know you don't belong

you're the first to fight
you're way too loud
you're the flash of light on a burial shroud
i know something's wrong

well, everyone i know has got a reason to say
put the past away

i wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
you could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
and if you do not want to see me again
i would understand
i would understand

and well, he's on the table
and he's gone to code
and i do not think anyone knows
what they are doing here

and your friends have left you
you've been dismissed
i never thought it would come to this
and i, i want you to know

everyone's got to face down the demons
maybe today, we can put the past away

i wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
you could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
and if you do not want to see me again
i would understand
i would understand

can you put the past away?

i wish you could step back from that ledge, my friend
and i would understand"

- "Jumper" by Third Eye Blind


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