B . U . R . N . ! ! !

This world rejects me
This world threw me away
This world never gave me a chance
This world gonna have to pay

Well I don't believe in your institutions
I did what you wanted me to
And like the cancer in your system
I've got a little surprise for you

Something inside of me
Has opened up its eyes
Why did you put it there?
Did you not realize?
This thing inside of me
It screams the loudest sound
Sometimes I think I could

Burn

I look down at where you're standing
Flock of sheep all on display
With all your lies piled up around you
I can take it all away

Something inside of me
Has opened up its eyes
Why did you put it there?
Did you not realize?
Something inside of me
It screams the loudest sound
Sometimes I think I could

I'm gonna burn this whole world down

I'm gonna burn this whole world down

I never was a part of you
I never was a part of you
I never was a part of you
I never was a part of you
I never was a part of you
I never was a part of you
I never was a part of you
I never was a part of you
I never was a part of you
I never was a part of you

I am your savior
I am corruption
I am the angel
of your destruction
I am perversion
Secret desire
I am your future
Swallowed up in fire

BURN
Nine Inch Nails


The past that I torn down years and years ago seems crawling back at my feet. Taking refuge in my anger. Bursting, yet all too consumed by the envelope of indifference that I created so the demons won't be awakened. And now, they are. And oh! how I badly need them.

I walk this life knowing no one can take pride and joy in my short existence. And so I try not to make it otherwise. But I tried to change so I could deserve some drop of forgiveness. But some people just don't fucking understand what it means. They know the word. They say it so everyone thinks they're a saint, a martyr. But behind those ridiculous pose, was the face that knows only hatred and harbors in it. And I was too dumb not to realize that everything was just a sick and fucked up lie. And it could have been fine if it was anyone else. But not to the people I care most to have sacrificed many things. I may not have been the best, but everything I changed into was out of purity. I was just trying to look after them, but I guess it was a mistake. Anger sheds masks, and in a snap, the saint transforms back into a monster. Unleashing the whip of the worst tongue I have ever heard of. The only noise that could pollute my head in just mere seconds. And every word uttered was a lash in my skin. Breaking. Burning. Bleeding.

Disgusting. Trading in forgiveness for respect. Or lack thereof. And this "black sheep selfish ungrateful brat" has always been true to her actions. But if some people can't, then, I don't have to look back. I did what needs to be done. If you don't like me for who I was, who I am now, and who I will become, then get fucking lost!

I have always thought that self-annihilation will be the best revenge I could do to someone I supposedly owed my existence for. And so, I wanted to destroy myself and have fun doing it. But then, I realized, my life is not about revenge or apology. It's mine. The only thing I can call mine. Whatever I do to it, is mine for taking.

...:::j u l i e:::...