And just as I thought only celebrities could break their public silence, I find the need to do it as well. And what better platform than my very own non-famous blog.
If you have been a follower of my blog, there's a greater chance that you have an idea of what issues I went through last year. Especially, the issues about some form of real Gossip Girl-ish type of drama. Ugh! Although I did put in countless curses and ugly words, still, I never dropped any names, and this site, my very few readers, is a place not much people know about. But lately, I have been hearing few downright mean and bitchy status messages and posts from some particular Facebook and Skype hater. If there's going to be a group site titled "I freakin' hate Julie Kwong", I tell you, she'll be the moderator of that account.
Just to cut the long story a bit shorter, remember my post from early last year? We Used To Be Friends? An old friend that became an ex because apparently, I unknowingly became a threat to her preys? I was never a competitor, I only wanted for us to cohabit harmoniously. So I stayed out of her victims. Until I became friends with the guy she was so madly crazy about. And that guy, well, he eventually ended up with me.
Alright, alright. Seriously, I never imagined that I would have a boyfriend at this point in my existence. Let alone, be a girlfriend of my boyfriend now. We were friends, buddies, and I was good with that. And the vulture, well, she's been hovering on some other victims during the last few months of last year. And I have very well accepted the fact that we are no longer like how we used to from about two or three years ago, but along with that, I remained civil with her. So, she was with her group of bitches, and I was with my crew. The best crew I ever had in that fishbowl. And during those times, I never thought that I would actually fall hard for "the guy". And "the guy" would feel the same. And like Incubus' song, it has been a three-fold Utopian dream. We have been together now for over a month. And it was only, I guess, last week when the vulture confirmed the truth.
So I have been called one too many ugly things. A snake. A backfighter. That I was shown nothing but goodness and I no longer deserved to be her friend. Whatthemotherfuckingsonofabitch!
Ok. Point Number ONE: I've talked to her many times before, told her about my grudges and whatnots with her, I remained civil, tried to save our so-called "friendship" too many times that I got fucking tired of that senseless crap. I have come to terms with the reality that some friendships can't go on just because you're hanging on for old times' sake. And that ended many months ago.
Point Number TWO: Who was she calling a snake, a backbiter? Moi? Nah! There was never a past with her and my guy. NEVER. I, along with all the observant tenured people on that fishbowl, very well know about that truth. Many times before, I pity the guy. He was always drunk and cornered by that untiring hovering insatiable vulture. Many have tried, including myself, to get her back on her feet and see the truth from the real perspective, but it's hard to open a door that has been tightly shut from the inside. I never owe anyone an explanation. It was no one's fault that I and the guy fell for each other. And we were both singles, for crying out loud! There was no snake, only a failed temptress, and that's not me.
Okay, I understand, she was hurt, alright. God knows it's unintentional. But what I don't get is how she's turning the whole thing into a sick and ugly hoopla, and how she's turning herself into an evil psycho-pathetic revenge-seeking hag that she is now. If she can't be happy for us, then, just leave us in peace. It was only last night when I learned that she already filed for immediate resignation the night before, when I and my boyfriend were both absent. This was exactly one of the major reasons why we kept our relationship under the radar. We know how she would handle this kind of issue. And we were right: she handles it insanely ugly.
Well, too many things have been said, but now that the vulture already left, I hope she finds in herself the acceptance for the real truth, and not just her own truth. That she finds a man that will fill her heart with love and empty out the bitterness and contempt that eats it now. I wish her happiness and success and love, nothing less.
xoxo
J
Oh, and yeah, mushroom? Well, it's good for your health. ;-p
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