I know it's been ages since I last posted, and I'm really sleepy now, but I just have to celebrate this night for I gave birth to my new and mr.too-soon baby. And because I have so much love for him, I shall name ye........ Damon. ♥♥♥

my new pixie haircut

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TUMBLR

Wow! I miss this blog. But I have kept my Tumblr for about a year now. So please visit juliekwong.tumblr.com for my posts after this blog.

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5800

Recently, I found myself looking for a new phone to replace my nearly 2-year old Nokia 6300 Black. And this is my new target baby. Nokia 5800 in Black. Below are the specifications, as taken from http://www.gsmarena.com/nokia_5800_xpressmusic-2537.php:

General	2G Network	GSM 850 / 900 / 1800 / 1900
	3G Network	HSDPA 900 / 2100
		HSDPA 850 / 1900 - American version
	Announced	2008, October
	Status	Available. Released 2008, November

Size	Dimensions	111 x 51.7 x 15.5 mm, 83 cc
	Weight	109 g

Display	Type	TFT resistive touchscreen, 16M colors
	Size	360 x 640 pixels, 3.2 inches
		- Proximity sensor for auto turn-off - Accelerometer sensor for auto-rotate - Handwriting recognition

Sound	Alert types	Vibration; Downloadable polyphonic, MP3 ringtones
	Speakerphone	Yes, with stereo speakers
		- 3.5 mm audio jack

Memory	Phonebook	Practically unlimited entries and fields, Photocall
	Call records	Detailed, max 30 days
	Internal	81 MB storage, 128 MB RAM
	Card slot	microSD, up to 16GB, 8GB included, buy memory

Data	GPRS	Class 32
	EDGE	Class 32
	3G	HSDPA, 3.6 Mbps
	WLAN	Wi-Fi 802.11 b/g, UPnP technology
	Bluetooth	Yes, v2.0 with A2DP
	Infrared port	No
	USB	Yes, v2.0 microUSB

Camera	Primary	3.15 MP, 2048x1536 pixels, Carl Zeiss optics, autofocus, dual-LED flash
	Features	Geo-tagging
	Video	Yes, VGA@30fps
	Secondary	QVGA videocall camera

Features	OS	Symbian OS v9.4, Series 60 rel. 5
	CPU	ARM 11 434 MHz processor
	Messaging	SMS, MMS, Email, Instant Messaging
	Browser	WAP 2.0/xHTML, HTML, RSS feeds
	Radio	Stereo FM radio with RDS
	Games	Yes + Java downloadable
	Colors	Black, Red, Blue
	GPS	Yes, with A-GPS support; Nokia Maps 2.0 Touch
	Java	Yes, MIDP 2.1
		- MP4/H.263/H.264/WMV player - MP3/WAV/еAAC+/WMA player - Photo editor - Organizer - Voice command/dial - Flash Lite 3.0 - TV-out - T9

Battery		Standard battery, Li-Ion 1320 mAh(BL-5J)
	Stand-by	Up to 406 h (2G) / Up to 406 h (3G)
	Talk time	Up to 8 h 45 min (2G) / Up to 5 h (3G)
	Music play	Up to 35 h

Misc	SAR US	1.11 W/kg (head) 0.90 W/kg (body)
	SAR EU	0.97 W/kg (head)

I also found this other site http://www.erodov.com/forums/21-reasons-why-nokia-5800-better-than-apple-iphone/15467.html. I'm not really familiar with iPhone, all I know is, Nokia 5800 is more within my budget, and I have always used Nokia phones since I was 15.

21 Reasons Why Nokia 5800 is better than Apple Iphone

We get lots of requests to compare in detail Nokia 5800 with Apple Iphone 3G. Here are some reasons we believe Nokia 5800 is way ahead than Iphone-

1) Size
The iphone is bigger in size and uneasy for one hand grip. Nokia 5800 is designed to fit well into your hands. Being smaller in width, it’s easy to operate single handedly.
Iphone size: 115.5 X 62.1 X 12.3 mm
Nokia 5800 size: 111 X 51.7 X 15.5 mm

2) Weight
Iphone is much bulkier than Nokia 5800. Nokia 5800 is 25g lighter than Iphone in weight.
Iphone: 133g
Nokia 5800: 109g

3) Screen Resolution
The Iphone has 3.5” screen while Nokia 5800 has 3.2” but the resolution of 5800 is far more superior to Iphone.
Resolution:
Iphone: 480 by 320
Nokia 5800: 640 by 360

4) Storage
Iphone comes with two options- 8GB & 16GB internal memory. Nokia has a more flexible option to offer 8GB with micro SD card which is expandable upto 16GB. Nokia owners can expand memory size according to needs which the Iphone guys can’t do.

5) Input Methods
Iphone: Finger only.
Nokia 5800: Finger, stylus, plectrum, handwriting recognition.

6) Features
Apple Iphone has lots of missing features like cut and paste function, saving email attachments, no support for third party headphones, ringtones, applications, many software bugs and other technical glitches. Nokia 5800 Tube has no such issues plus many more amazingfeatures included.

7) Colors
Iphone: Black for 8 & 16 GB, White for 16 GB only.
Nokia 5800: Red, Blue and Black.

8 ) Battery
Nokia 5800 provides upto 35 hrs of music playing time against Apple Iphone which claims just 24 hrs. Overall battery power (talktime/standby) is also about 30% more in Nokia 5800. What more, 5800 has a removable battery which Iphone lacks.
Iphone: 5 hrs talk-time, 300 hrs standby, not removable.
Nokia 5800: 8.8 hrs talk-time, 406 hrs standby, removable battery.

9) Camera
Iphone: 2 MP, no flash, no zoom, no additional camera.
Nokia 5800: has a 3.2mp camera, 3x digital zoom with Carl Zeiss lens,professional optics, autofocus, zoom, and flash compared to the iphones 2mp cheap optics. A second camera in front is available for video calling/conferencing.

10) Video Calling
Iphone: No Video calling possible in Iphone.
Nokia 5800: Video calling is possible.

11) Video Recording
IPhone: No option for video recording.
Nokia 5800: Video recording is included.

12) Music Service
Iphone: Paid service with Apple Itunes Store. You pay and download music to your Iphone.
Nokia 5800: “Comes with music” service is bundled with Nokia 5800 Xpressmusic phone by which you can download as much music as you want for 1 year- FREE!!

13) Voice Dialing
Iphone: Not Available
Nokia 5800: Available

14) Voice Recording
IPhone: Not Available
Nokia 5800: Available

15) Web Browser
Iphone: Webkit based Safari browser, no flash available.
Nokia 5800: Webkit based browser, supports flash lite.

16) FM Radio
Iphone: Not Available
Nokia 5800: Available

17) Bluetooth
Iphone: Bluetooth is available for just handsfree, no file sharing possible.
Nokia 5800: Bluetooth available for handsfree and file sharing is possible. Better audio quality on bluetooth in 5800 with A2DP technology which Iphone lacks. The 5800 supports stereo bluetooth. The iphone does not.

18) Messaging
Iphone: It does not support message forwarding, multiple SMS deletion, sending SMS to multiple recipients and multimedia messages (MMS).
Nokia 5800: All the above is possible plus it has MMS ver 1.3, message size upto 600kb, and automatic resizing of Images for MMS.19) GPS The Nokia 5800 has a GPS receiver with turn by turn directions. The iphone does not have turn by turn

20) The OS
The 5800 runs symbian s60 which means that you have the ability to install any number of programs on it, such as a different internet browser or multimedia player. Apple does not allow apps in the app store that mimic the official apps. there are internet browsers available for the 5800 that have embedded flash. the safari browser on the iphone is html only.

21) Experience
Nokia: Ages of experience, hundreds of success stories and dozens of smart handsets in current portfolio. Nokia has about 40% market share with the No.1 spot with no close competitors. Certainly the king when it comes to brand value, service and experience.
Apple: First phone ever launched by Apple is Iphone, no prior experience in the telecom market. It’s a novice in the market with a very less market share despite having millions of Iphone sold.

Verdict: Almost all the major brands around the world like Samsung, HTC, LG, etc launched their touchscreen smartphones with a hope to beat Apple’s Iphone. No-one came close to Iphone when it comes to looks, style, feel and features.
This is the first time a tech giant like Nokia has hit it hard with its first true touchscreen smartphone. Nokia 5800 is a real Iphone killer with way ahead features, perfect looks and great price. Bravo Nokia, Well Done!!


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TUMBLR.

my Satellite blog:

juliekwong.tumblr.com

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i miss you

What I'm listening to at the moment:

"I Miss You" by Incubus

I've been up since 1 AM, and I haven't been able to sleep since then. I find myself sinking deeper and deeper into this love hole, and it makes me scared. This Bonnie misses her Clyde so badly, I had to fight the urge to fly to the "fishbowl" and snatch him out of there. It's only been nearly two days, but already I'm wasting away, just like what Brandon Boyd said. Another two days of enduring this pain of not having him around, of not being able to hear his voice, see his face, hold his hand... I miss him, and I could say it over a thousand times, and it still won't make much difference.

"I know I'll see you again whether far or soon
But I need you to know that I care
And I miss you..." - "I Miss You" by Incubus

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ash wednesday

Have you ever wanted something, and when you finally get it, you want to just destroy it?

Wednesday morning. On my favorite Makati corner. The only ash I've got are ashes from my cigarettes. I feel free. And I yearn for this feeling of liberty that I used to have. The liberty that comes with being alone and without a worry... for someone. I worry, yes, I worry a lot. A lot more than necessary. But I used to worry only about myself, worry about my sick, sad, and wasted life. But now, I worry for something else. Someone else. And something else about myself. A part of me that I find myself wanting to destroy altogether, so I could go back to my world.

My little dark and twisted fucked up world.

It's insanely stupid. I can't even fucking write anymore for being on an indescribably uphill ride most times. Then I would turn around and see that I'm getting farther and farther away from being my own sense of normalcy. Yes, this ride is pretty. Yes, it's lovely. Yes, it's what most people would bitch out just to get a taste of. But everyday is a battle. To stay or to abandon. And no one knows this but me. No one knows how crazy my thoughts every week, hour, day, and minute. A beauty I want so badly to fucking destroy. A reckless and ruthless abandon.

Because I no longer want it. Because it's not what I need. Because it's dragging me to an empty island with nothing but holding another hand. Because I'm fastly becoming the person I could no longer recognize. I'm not used to being "happy", to having this unbearable lightness, and it's turning itself into an ugly addiction. An unhealthy addiction. Not that any addiction is healthy, or pretty, but this certainly is an addiction I don't want to be in for any length of time. It's like a drug, and everytime it would wear off, I would be dragged down, catching myself yearning and yearning for some more of it. And everytime, I would have this single word scrolling around my head. Restricted. Because I have to worry for this new add-on to my existence that has been turning into my axis.

I miss myself. As if I have not said that at least a thousand and one times. But now, I miss myself more and more it's becoming a chronic and acute sickness. I miss being by my own. I miss being in my own private world. Because this beauty I have now would not even fathom it, would not even welcome the thought of entering it. Because this beauty only wants a continuous happiness, and most of the time, it's me I found unhappy, unsatisfied, and ungrateful.

Call me evil. Call me stupid. Call me every damn ugly word you've got, but all I could say is, this is not where I want to be right now. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe next decade. But not now. Not this soon. And this thing caught me unguarded and unprepared. Nothing that I planned. But still, I welcomed it like a child who got a new expensive toy, who will eventually get tired of it and would come back to her old classic worn-out toy just sitting at the corner of her messed up room.

I tried to be too preoccupied, tried to put in as much to my time, only to find myself stuck on my bed, just thinking about this beauty I want to abandon. And I sleep. And sleep some more until my head hurts, so I could escape this person I've become. And I only wake up worse than who I was when I drifted off.

Guess I'm scared. Scared of getting hurt. Scared of being the one to hurt. If I leave, I would damage another soul, but if I stay longer, I would damage myself the most. I can't help picturing myself getting out of this, and it's increasingly disturbing. But it's something that's going to hurt nevertheless once I abandon, something I'm unsure of if I could afford losing. Because then, I would go back to the core of my sickness. Of not knowing what I really want, and not fully understanding what I do.

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Twilight & New Moon

Books of the Week:




Let's do this!

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Color Career Counselor

Welcome Julie Kwong

The Dewey Color System® is now the world's most accurate career testing instrument.
This report based on your personality traits indicates your two most enjoyable day-day-day occupation skills. It’s a summary of the full report, the Color Leadership Evaluation 5.0.

“Studies indicate workplace enjoyment is the key to success. So as you read, consider only “Was I mostly having fun at work?” Disregard your present and past employer’s environment.

Best Occupational Category

You're a CREATOR

Keywords

Nonconforming, Impulsive, Expressive, Romantic, Intuitive, Sensitive, and Emotional

These original types place a high value on aesthetic qualities and have a great need for self-expression. They enjoy working independently, being creative, using their imagination, and constantly learning something new. Fields of interest are art, drama, music, and writing or places where they can express, assemble, or implement creative ideas.

CREATOR OCCUPATIONS
Suggested careers are Advertising Executive, Architect, Web Designer, Creative Director, Public Relations, Fine or Commercial Artist, Interior Decorator, Lawyer, Librarian, Musician, Reporter, Art Teacher, Broadcaster, Technical Writer, English Teacher, Architect, Photographer, Medical Illustrator, Corporate Trainer, Author, Editor, Landscape Architect, Exhibit Builder, and Package Designer.

CREATOR WORKPLACES
Consider workplaces where you can create and improve beauty and aesthetic qualities. Unstructured, flexible organizations that allow self-expression work best with your free-spirited nature.

Suggested Creator workplaces are advertising, public relations, and interior decorating firms; artistic studios, theaters and concert halls; institutions that teach crafts, universities, music, and dance schools. Other workplaces to consider are art institutes, museums, libraries, and galleries.

2nd Best Occupational Category

You're an ORGANIZER

Keywords:

Self-Control, Practical, Self-Contained, Orderly, Systematic, Precise, and Accurate

These conservative appearing, plotting-types enjoy organizing, data systems, accounting, detail, and accuracy. They often enjoy mathematics and data management activities such as accounting and investment management. Persistence and patience allows them to do detailed paperwork, operate office machines, write business reports, and make charts and graphs.

• Section I: You and Your Team
  This personality overview section highlights your natural workplace talents—the tasks you pursue with passion. You'll learn how your natural strengths complement those of your coworkers and how, joining forces, you can resolve on-the-job dilemmas.
• Section II: Your Key To Success
  Here you discover your capacity for dispelling disruption and maximizing profitability. Use this proven, beyond-self-perception advice to create a more positive career path free of detours.
• Section III: Managing Strengths and Weaknesses
  Your evaluation's highest and lowest scores result in this section's recommendations for staying on-track in your career and reversing wrong turns. In focusing on your talents and missteps, you'll re-stoke your energy and enthusiasm for managing costly mistakes.
• Section IV: Leadership Power Moves
  This final section identifies your "street sense," those power moves that turn obstacles into insignificant details. Here suggestions based on your color-ranked evaluations will guide you towards making the most of an interview or harnessing your fast-paced workday.
  
  

SOURCE: http://www.careerpath.com/career-tests/colorcareercounselor.aspx

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Jacob & Patch

Jacob and Patch are the two new babies of my friend, Tina. They're a cross between Poodle and Pomeranian parents. Shots were taken on a Saturday morning at the Bonifacio High Street.









This is my favorite shot of Patch.

This is one Jacob. Since he's the most playful, I can't take better shots of him.















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bugs

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breaking the silence

And just as I thought only celebrities could break their public silence, I find the need to do it as well. And what better platform than my very own non-famous blog. 

If you have been a follower of my blog, there's a greater chance that you have an idea of what issues I went through last year. Especially, the issues about some form of real Gossip Girl-ish type of drama. Ugh! Although I did put in countless curses and ugly words, still, I never dropped any names, and this site, my very few readers, is a place not much people know about. But lately, I have been hearing few downright mean and bitchy status messages and posts from some particular Facebook and Skype hater. If there's going to be a group site titled "I freakin' hate Julie Kwong", I tell you, she'll be the moderator of that account. 

Just to cut the long story a bit shorter, remember my post from early last year? We Used To Be Friends? An old friend that became an ex because apparently, I unknowingly became a threat to her preys? I was never a competitor, I only wanted for us to cohabit harmoniously. So I stayed out of her victims. Until I became friends with the guy she was so madly crazy about. And that guy, well, he eventually ended up with me.

Alright, alright. Seriously, I never imagined that I would have a boyfriend at this point in my existence. Let alone, be a girlfriend of my boyfriend now. We were friends, buddies, and I was good with that. And the vulture, well, she's been hovering on some other victims during the last few months of last year. And I have very well accepted the fact that we are no longer like how we used to from about two or three years ago, but along with that, I remained civil with her. So, she was with her group of bitches, and I was with my crew. The best crew I ever had in that fishbowl. And during those times, I never thought that I would actually fall hard for "the guy". And "the guy" would feel the same. And like Incubus' song, it has been a three-fold Utopian dream. We have been together now for over a month. And it was only, I guess, last week when the vulture confirmed the truth. 

So I have been called one too many ugly things. A snake. A backfighter. That I was shown nothing but goodness and I no longer deserved to be her friend. Whatthemotherfuckingsonofabitch! 

Ok. Point Number ONE: I've talked to her many times before, told her about my grudges and whatnots with her, I remained civil, tried to save our so-called "friendship" too many times that I got fucking tired of that senseless crap. I have come to terms with the reality that some friendships can't go on just because you're hanging on for old times' sake. And that ended many months ago.

Point Number TWO: Who was she calling a snake, a backbiter? Moi? Nah! There was never a past with her and my guy. NEVER. I, along with all the observant tenured people on that fishbowl, very well know about that truth. Many times before, I pity the guy. He was always drunk and cornered by that untiring hovering insatiable vulture. Many have tried, including myself, to get her back on her feet and see the truth from the real perspective, but it's hard to open a door that has been tightly shut from the inside. I never owe anyone an explanation. It was no one's fault that I and the guy fell for each other. And we were both singles, for crying out loud! There was no snake, only a failed temptress, and that's not me.

Okay, I understand, she was hurt, alright. God knows it's unintentional. But what I don't get is how she's turning the whole thing into a sick and ugly hoopla, and how she's turning herself into an evil psycho-pathetic revenge-seeking hag that she is now. If she can't be happy for us, then, just leave us in peace. It was only last night when I learned that she already filed for immediate resignation the night before, when I and my boyfriend were both absent. This was exactly one of the major reasons why we kept our relationship under the radar. We know how she would handle this kind of issue. And we were right: she handles it insanely ugly. 

Well, too many things have been said, but now that the vulture already left, I hope she finds in herself the acceptance for the real truth, and not just her own truth. That she finds a man that will fill her heart with love and empty out the bitterness and contempt that eats it now. I wish her happiness and success and love, nothing less.

xoxo

J

Oh, and yeah, mushroom? Well, it's good for your health. ;-p

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Empire State of Mind

What I'm listening to at the moment:

"Empire State of Mind" by Jay-Z feat. Alicia Keys

I have always wanted to be in New York. To breathe its beauty and live its challenge. That's one secret I used to keep. One of the many places I'd like to step on during this lifetime.

And, man, how I just adore Alicia Keys.
And the black-and-white photos shown on this video.



"...New York
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There's nothing you can't do
Now you're in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Let's hear for New York..."
- "Empire State of Mind (New York)" - Jay-Z feat. Alicia Keys


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